You’re Feeling Old and Your Heart is Breaking

Current mood: mellow

'And before you know/You're feeling old/And your heart is breaking/Don't hold onto the past'
~Madonna

The age thing is a wave, I find. Sometimes I feel age creeping over me, but then other times I feel perfectly youthful, especially given the current average life expectancy. Although, I honestly don't expect to make it past 50 with my family history, etc.

Anyway, a good friend of mine who is about 46 told me he regrets how he felt old when he was younger - like my age, or younger. He's had it all - professional success and a child.

I think this is sound advice. Feeling old is a drag.

If anything, it's the little struggles that don't seem to get easier (enough) that make me world-weary. But therapy helps so much.

The weirdest thing of all is to find yourself changing, changing into someone else, or very different from who you thought you would be. When you were young, how you balked at such things. You knew better...Ha ha. Time has the last laugh.

Spent last weekend in the studio again. Now 4/10 done. Wore a black armband for Tony Wilson. God rest his poor soul. In honor of him, I listened to '24 Hour Party People' about 20 times in a row. It's just as good every time. I meditated on 24 Hour Party People, Party Monster and the Hacienda...Funny, this Nico disc I got a few months back (ATP) has her performing live at the Hacienda BDay Party.

Oh to have been there, or at the Hacienda EVER!

The band is releasing a new song online in honor of the show next week...only a few more days now...

Currently listening : Public Image By Public Image Ltd. Release date: 26 March, 1996